Has hope ever had you feeling backed up? Well, if yes, you’re not alone. Sometimes having hope is like storing treasures inside (hm, this is where the constipation metaphor breaks down a little) that you can’t quite share yet since there are so many unknowns. You want to, but you can’t (ah yes, and now the metaphor is working again).
Hope is this beautiful entity that drives you forward–it’s a force pulling you from where you are to where you want to be. But in the between–in the limbo, it has you holding your breath and bracing yourself for the:
- What if this doesn’t work out?
- What if I fail?
- What if I get hurt?
…all the what-ifs and the attempts at safeguarding your heart in case of a let down.
Hope is living in a push and pull. Hope, although unclear in how it’ll manifest, is the tension that keeps your heart alive and your soul curious. It’s that small voice that whispers a mysterious assurance that there’s more than right now–the gentle but firm reminder that you’re a part of something bigger. Hope is a big picture made of a bunch of little (hope) puzzle pieces that come together over time, often times not looking like anything in particular (realistically more hot-mess-like than anything else), until all the separate pieces came together to create something magnificent.
Hope is all the feelings. Hope soars high and dips incredibly low. Hope on very small scale can be about wanting In-n-Out for dinner and hope on an entirely different level can be your heart’s cry to have a baby of your own someday.
Where am I going with this? I don’t fully know, to be honest–other than to say that this life is a dance with hope and the One who is our hope. It’s our choice to say yes to the invitation to this adventurous life (with all of its unknowns and uncertainties) with the One who made us, knows us, chooses to be with us, loves us, and wants the best for us. Hope keeps us on the edge of our seat, our eyes fixed, and hearts anchored. Hope is. And I’m so grateful…cuz could you imagine life without? No, thank you.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11