I’m going to be an AUNTIE. Yes, I am already an Auntie I’ve been an “Auntie” to many and love that, but this is different because my BABY BROTHER is going to be a dad (insert heart eyes & brain exploding emojis here). This is next level Auntie-ing. I can hardly contain myself! I mean–this is totally beside the point, but there’s a chance this baby could look like me! How crazy is that? I mean, technically both of my kids could easily be mistaken for my brother’s, haha (proof here that Aria could be theirs :D).
What makes this even more special to me is the fact that my brother and I are friends (like we actually like and love each other) at this juncture in life. It wasn’t always that way. We have 4 years between us, and that’s enough to make a world of difference. Different friends. Different stages of life. Not too much common ground. I’d say we didn’t really become friends until after Dave and I got married. There was something powerful in having a zero-rehearsal spontaneously choreographed dance to this song ;)–you’ll just have to trust that there was good reason for this. Our wedding was the turning point, and maaaan am I glad (all the praise hands).
Nic (my sis-in-<3) asked me a while back if I would take their maternity pictures–DUH!–Yes please! They came out to Santa Barbara for a couple of days, and it was amazing to get some quality time in with them before baby Silas comes (Sidenote: If you want REALLY good quality time, go eat really good tacos together here). For Dave and I’s babymoon before we had Ezra, we headed out to San Diego where Paul and Nic live, so it was fun switching places a year later :).
A picture is worth a thousand words, but what’s also worth nothing is what you can’t see in these pictures. Aria and Ezra were behind me in the stroller–sometimes cooperating and sometimes crying or majorly whining since it was so freakin’ hot that day (jellybeans may have been used as currency–and no, Ezra did not get any). And to put any worrying minds at rest: I do not always bring my kids on shoots ;).
I wanted to give a little shoutout to my almost-here Nephew.
Let’s just get this one out of the way. You will learn very fast that your Auntie cries often–any emotion, you name it. I’ll be crying. So it’s likely that the first time I meet you, I’ll be getting your sweet little face wet; i’ll do my best to keep it mostly tears with minimal snot (JK on the snot. Dead serious on the tears). I’m only kind of sorry for that. It is what it is ;). Also, i’ll be smelling you and carefully squeezing you–a lot. I can’t wait!
I wanted to let you in on some important info before you get here:
You will never be hungry. Yes, you’ll be provided for, but what i’m trying to say is that your mommy and daddy love food. You’ll eat good food and if you’re smart, you’ll learn how to cook from your dad (your future wife will thank you). And I pray to the good Lord that you’re not a picky eater. But if you are, I guess it’s not the end of the world since your daddy was also a picky eater. And he turned out OK ;).
You will know the value of community. Your mommy and daddy are really good at making friends; they’re rockstars at making people feel loved. I have a feeling that you’re going to be filled with compassion and have a inherent desire to protect others. I pray that from an early age, you feel the Holy Spirit’s nudging to go after the one and to love them well. What I’m trying to say is that you’re going to be a really good friend because you’ll see it done well.
You will never not be loved. You have an amazing mommy and daddy. And through their love, you’ll know the heart of the Father. You will know the love of Jesus, both in the ways that they knock in out of the park, but also in how they’ll fail–because in that you’ll see their need for Jesus, see their dependency on Him, and see how He does insanely beautiful things through imperfect people.
Lastly, you should also know that one of your parents is super stubborn, and the other one likes to pick his/her nose. One couldn’t care less about awesome looking throw pillows, and the other one will probably stress out pretty hard if you make big messes or take a sharpie to the furniture. I’m certain you’ll figure out who’s who, but in case you don’t, give Auntie a call. I gotcho back.
Paul & Nicole,
I love you two so much and cannot wait to see you be parents. Parts of your heart that you didn’t know were there are going to be awakened, and you’ll never be the same again. You will expand and your capacity to love will grow exponentially. You will tangibly grasp a completely different facet of God’s crazy love for you as you look at this sweet little babe. This tiny little human is going to usher in healing to places that need healing and show you that you are good at things that you didn’t know you’d be good at. You are in for it, and it is going to be SO good.